About Obama, Jesus said to conservatives in Matt 5:43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘YOU SHALL LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR and hate your enemy.’ 44 “But I say to you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven; for He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 “For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? 47 “If you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? 48 “Therefore you are to be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

I’m pretty conservative, I disagree with abortion, stem cell research, gay marriage, & I believe in equality, freedom, life, liberty, & the pursute of happiness. I stand up for the American dream. Why? Because they are based on the very principals of the Kingdom of God found in my Bible. SO WHAT IS WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU!? Do you ever read, study, & apply those scriptures that you are SOOOO quick to argue “should be in schools, should be in courts, along with prayer & open freedom of religeon & expression of our faith”??? I AGREE COMPLETELY with you, but do you exorcise your freedom in faith anyway? Do you praise God in public, upholding His great two commandments to love HIM & love each other?? Or do you mock that freedom & just cuss like a slave to sin, & look like a fool talking bad about the “stupid d*** Liberals who won’t f***ing except that this is a Christian country!!!” Hypocrites.

You act just like the Zealots of Jesus time. They knew what they wanted, they saw what was wrong in the government, they knew they needed the Messiah & they were absolutely right about it all!!! Except that instead of following Jesus, who is One with God who instilled their very values in them, they thought that they could accomplish this by the sword. Their pain & suffering was very real, as is ours, & the government they were under was cruel, corupt, & pagan, just like ours, but the Kingdom of God is at hand!

Kingdoms are NOT democracies, you don’t have a choice to be obnoxious, spiteful, & hateful, you only have the choice to obey our King! Why are you acting in rebellion against Him who instilled the very values in you that you are rebelling against Him in an effort to protect? It didn’t work for the Zealots, it wont work for us.

We are free only in Christ Jesus, our King, who teaches us the righteous way & diverts our paths from the heathen’s way. However, our fist focus MUST BE HIM. Not FOX News, not what Obama said. Can you turn the TV, computer, & radio off for one hour in the morning, & read your Bible & pray, without your thoughts darting back to “what you might be missing on FOX & Friends”? Try it, that might just tell you if Conservatism is your idol. (An idol is ANY primary focus & concern in your life that is NOT the Lord God Almighty.) Are YOU an idol worshiper? Jesus says that no one can serve two masters. He then goes on to say:

Matthew 6:25 “For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 “Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? 27 “And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? 28 “And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, 29 yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. 30 “But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! 31 “Do not worry then, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear for clothing?’ 32 “For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 “But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
34 “So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

So why is the news your focus anyway? There is no need to worry about the economy, the bills, the world turning, the planes dropping, or anything else. NOTHING is going to happen that will go against God’s great plan, & we already know what is going on in the world anyway. It is true that we are told to watch…but we are told to not worry…. AND we are told that the GREATEST commandment is to LOVE THE LORD THY GOD. I love America, yes, but I am a citizen of Heaven, here as a steward from my King, to represent His Kingdom, in the colony Earth, where I am to be an example, the salt, the light, & therefore a fisher of men, and make disciples. Colonize this planet, before I return to the Home Country. Do you follow?

We know from His Word that there will be a global economic crash, a One World Government, a great leader that emerges from the rubble, a false prophet that leads the way… Look at these two things & think of current events:

2 Timothy 3 NASB “Difficult Times Will Come”~~~
1 But realize this, that in the last days difficult times will come. 2 For men will be lovers of self, lovers of money, boastful, arrogant, revilers, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy, 3 unloving, irreconcilable, malicious gossips, without self-control, brutal, haters of good, 4 treacherous, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, 5 holding to a form of godliness, although they have denied its power; Avoid such men as these. 6 For among them are those who enter into households and captivate weak women weighed down with sins, led on by various impulses, 7 always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth. 8 Just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses, so these men also oppose the truth, men of depraved mind, rejected in regard to the faith. 9 But they will not make further progress; for their folly will be obvious to all, just as Jannes’s and Jambres’s folly was also.
10 Now you followed my teaching, conduct, purpose, faith, patience, love, perseverance, 11 persecutions, and sufferings, such as happened to me at Antioch, at Iconium and at Lystra; what persecutions I endured, and out of them all the Lord rescued me! 12 Indeed, all who desire to live godly in Christ Jesus will be persecuted. 13 But evil men and impostors will proceed from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived. 14 You, however, continue in the things you have learned and become convinced of, knowing from whom you have learned them, 15 and that from childhood you have known the sacred writings which are able to give you the wisdom that leads to salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus. 16 All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; 17 so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work.

And here in Jesus’ very words in the Olivet discourse, found also in : Matthew 24 read: http://nasb.scripturetext.com/matthew/24.htm & Mark 13 read: http://nasb.scripturetext.com/mark/13.htm

Luke 21: “Things to Come”~~~
10 Then He continued by saying to them, “Nation will rise against nation and kingdom against kingdom, 11 and there will be great earthquakes, and in various places plagues and famines; and there will be terrors and great signs from heaven.
12 “But before all these things, they will lay their hands on you and will persecute you, delivering you to the synagogues and prisons, bringing you before kings and governors for My name’s sake. 13 “It will lead to an opportunity for your testimony. 14 “So make up your minds not to prepare beforehand to defend yourselves; 15 for I will give you utterance and wisdom which none of your opponents will be able to resist or refute. 16 “But you will be betrayed even by parents and brothers and relatives and friends, and they will put some of you to death, 17 and you will be hated by all because of My name. 18 “Yet not a hair of your head will perish. 19 “By your endurance you will gain your lives.
20 “But when you see Jerusalem surrounded by armies, then recognize that her desolation is near. 21 “Then those who are in Judea must flee to the mountains, and those who are in the midst of the city must leave, and those who are in the country must not enter the city; 22 because these are days of vengeance, so that all things which are written will be fulfilled. 23 “Woe to those who are pregnant and to those who are nursing babies in those days; for there will be great distress upon the land and wrath to this people; 24 and they will fall by the edge of the sword, and will be led captive into all the nations; and Jerusalem will be trampled under foot by the Gentiles until the times of the Gentiles are fulfilled.
~The Return of Christ~
25 “There will be signs in sun and moon and stars, and on the earth dismay among nations, in perplexity at the roaring of the sea and the waves, 26 men fainting from fear and the expectation of the things which are coming upon the world; for the powers of the heavens will be shaken. 27 “Then they will see THE SON OF MAN COMING IN A CLOUD with power and great glory. 28 “But when these things begin to take place, straighten up and lift up your heads, because your redemption is drawing near.”
29 Then He told them a parable: “Behold the fig tree and all the trees; 30 as soon as they put forth leaves, you see it and know for yourselves that summer is now near. 31 “So you also, when you see these things happening, recognize that the kingdom of God is near. 32 “Truly I say to you, this generation will not pass away until all things take place. 33 “Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will not pass away.
34 “Be on guard, so that your hearts will not be weighted down with dissipation and drunkenness and the worries of life, and that day will not come on you suddenly like a trap; 35 for it will come upon all those who dwell on the face of all the earth. 36 “But keep on the alert at all times, praying that you may have strength to escape all these things that are about to take place, and to stand before the Son of Man.”
37 Now during the day He was teaching in the temple, but at evening He would go out and spend the night on the mount that is called Olivet. 38 And all the people would get up early in the morning to come to Him in the temple to listen to Him.

So, we are to look, to see, to know these things are happening, as He said they would, but not to then rebel, go attack government, worry, panic, & lock our focus on these things, NO just the contrary, He tells us to obey our government. God is in control, God let/put Obama in the White House. Read this & try to tell me otherwise:

1 Peter 2:13-20 Honor Authority~
13 Submit yourselves for the Lord’s sake to every human institution, whether to a king as the one in authority, 14 or to governors as sent by him for the punishment of evildoers and the praise of those who do right. 15 For such is the will of God that by doing right you may silence the ignorance of foolish men. 16 Act as free men, and do not use your freedom as a covering for evil, but use it as bondslaves of God. 17 Honor all people, love the brotherhood, fear God, honor the king.
18 Servants, be submissive to your masters with all respect, not only to those who are good and gentle, but also to those who are unreasonable. 19 For this finds favor, if for the sake of conscience toward God a person bears up under sorrows when suffering unjustly. 20 For what credit is there if, when you sin and are harshly treated, you endure it with patience? But if when you do what is right and suffer for it you patiently endure it, this finds favor with God.

Be Subject to Government~
Romans 13:1 Every person is to be in subjection to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those which exist are established by God. 2 Therefore whoever resists authority has opposed the ordinance of God; and they who have opposed will receive condemnation upon themselves. 3 For rulers are not a cause of fear for good behavior, but for evil. Do you want to have no fear of authority? Do what is good and you will have praise from the same; 4 for it is a minister of God to you for good. But if you do what is evil, be afraid; for it does not bear the sword for nothing; for it is a minister of God, an avenger who brings wrath on the one who practices evil. 5 Therefore it is necessary to be in subjection, not only because of wrath, but also for conscience’ sake. 6 For because of this you also pay taxes, for rulers are servants of God, devoting themselves to this very thing. 7 Render to all what is due them: tax to whom tax is due; custom to whom custom; fear to whom fear; honor to whom honor.
8 Owe nothing to anyone except to love one another; for he who loves his neighbor has fulfilled the law. 9 For this, “YOU SHALL NOT COMMIT ADULTERY, YOU SHALL NOT MURDER, YOU SHALL NOT STEAL, YOU SHALL NOT COVET,” and if there is any other commandment, it is summed up in this saying, “YOU SHALL LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF.” 10 Love does no wrong to a neighbor; therefore love is the fulfillment of the law.
11 Do this, knowing the time, that it is already the hour for you to awaken from sleep; for now salvation is nearer to us than when we believed. 12 The night is almost gone, and the day is near. Therefore let us lay aside the deeds of darkness and put on the armor of light. 13 Let us behave properly as in the day, not in carousing and drunkenness, not in sexual promiscuity and sensuality, not in strife and jealousy. 14 But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh in regard to its lusts.

So good or bad, just or unjust, obey, & also know, all things are in God’s power, so not only don’t worry, but have faith, & know God gave you your elected officials, yes, thats Obama, Pilosi, & I don’t care who else. Know this also, that all things in the “Last Days” will happen just as God said, so if Government is to be corrupt, so shall it be, an uprising will not stop God’s plan. CANT YOU, A PEOPLE TRYING TO UPHOLD A MORAL CODE GIVEN TO YOU BY GOD, SEE HIS HANDIWORK & THE SETTING OF THE GLOBAL STAGE TO THE LAST EVENTS THAT ARE SOON COMING!?

Now, to close, let me take you back to my first point: LOVE YOUR ENEMY. What is love? How do you love an enemy? Bake Obama a cake & set his photo on your desktop? Um…NO. Love is a continuous choice, a series of actions, both to do (send him a letter with your testimony of what God has done, power is in our testimonies, & the testimony of Jesus Christ of which we are witnesses, through the Holy Spirit, so spread the gospel to him) & to know when not to do (like keeping our mouths shut, when we have so much we could say.) Bless them that persecute you? Pray for them!!!!

Think about this. You killed Jesus. I killed Jesus. Obama killed Jesus. You, & Obama, & I, as a team, equally, ganged up, beat, whipped, slapped, & bludgeoned Jesus. We then shoved thorns on His head that ripped His scalp to the scull, we shoved Him to the ground, weakened, bloody, opened & the bible says “unrecognizable as a man” but still, we shoved Him into the dirt to let it penetrate His wounds & bury itself in His muscle tissue. We kicked him, plucked out His beard, mocked him, and then, You, Obama, & I nailed Him to our cross that He willingly took for us, & finally, just to see if He was dead yet, we even stabbed Him. He NEVER opened His mouth to speak one ill word about any of us. How much would you have taken before cussing us out, or even speaking your side? Thats love, thats respect.

My love walk is not perfect, I still stumble, people tick me off, or “push my buttons” sometimes. I know if you came up & punched me, I would punch back. Agape, unconditional love is incredibly hard for imperfect beings. But Christ opened up His mouth not once & “went as a lamb to the slaughter” & Christians are “Christ people” or “Christ like”. Have you grasped the realization that this means to LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY? That means without conditions, whether you like me or I like you, to still love one another? “No matter what thing you do to me, I choose to do only good to you, not speak slander against you, & not expect anything in return for my efforts. I will do this even if you repeatedly ignore me, or come against me over & over.” That is love. Grasp this mindset because if you claim to confess Christ, baby, you gotta realize that we are under only two commandments from our King, to LOVE God, & to LOVE man. “Without love we are NOTHING” so WAKE UP!! It literally makes me want to cry, it hurts me so deeply to watch the Body of Christ act like the heathens, self serving, lovers of self & people that benefit us. WE ARE THE BODY OF CHRIST JESUS, HIS AMBASSADORS ON EARTH. We are supposed to look like Him, talk like Him, LOVE like Him!! How much more does it hurt Him if it hurts imperfect, still in the flesh, me? I’m not saying I walk in perfect agape, but look: Acts 4:13 “Now as they observed the confidence of Peter and John and understood that they were uneducated and untrained men, they were amazed, and began to recognize them as having been with Jesus.” They were recognized as having met with Christ because they were uneducated, but spoke as a knowable person. Haven’t you met Jesus? Then speak like you know Him & have some since. Just don’t speak bad & curse the ones that would persecute you, bless them, or say nothing. You killed Jesus, he never cursed you, just kept His mouth quiet even though He had everything against you to speak justly, just as you should shut up about Obama no matter how much he does wrong that you could point out. Jesus blessed you. Bless Obama. We are told to carry Christ’s burden… WHAT DO YOU THINK THIS MEANS?????

Study LOVE for what it is. Apply it. We are commanded to do two things LOVE GOD & LOVE MAN & Jesus said that if we loved HIM we would what??? Keep His commandments. Loving man includes loving our ENEMY as well. John 14:15 “If you love Me, you will keep My commandments. & John 15:10 “If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love; just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love.

Pray the principals of love for yourself from this chapter.

1 Corinthians 13
The Excellence of Love~
1 If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 And if I give all my possessions to feed the poor, and if I surrender my body to be burned, but do not have love, it profits me nothing.
4 Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, 5 does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, 6 does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails; but if there are gifts of prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part; 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. 13 But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.

I pray that God richly blesses you! I love you & this rebuke was in love, we need to come together & get in shape! WE ARE THE BODY!!!! Grace, peace, love, strength, wisdom, knowledge, revelation, & many rich blessing upon your head from Adonia & in the name of Yeshua! May our Abba open your spiritual eyes & ears & give you the Kingdom knowledge & open your hearts & show you what pleases & displeases Him, the almighty. May He remove the thing, person, whatever, that blocks your eyes, & breaks your focus, I pray He whisks it out of your way so you may clearly see Him, & that you all abide in peace & walk in love. In the name of Jesus, amen!

My little reggae song:

If you play with fire, you’re bound to get burned;
That’s a hard lesson, bound to be learned;
Hypnotized by the flame,
We take a chance on the game,
And it turns out the same,
Nobody but ourselves to blame.

We just keep dancing, and
Cheaply romancing, our
Way from day to day.

We play with fire, and
Get ourselves higher, there
Must be a better way.

Help me Lord, keep the fire of hell from my soul;
I want the fire of Your Spirit to come consume me whole;
My mama taught me best,
I put her words to the test,
I found true peace and rest,
Now I wear a cross on my chest.

I’ll just keep dancing, while
You keep romancing, my
Spirit through my praise.

Filled with Your fire, Lord
You take me higher, please
Help me to know Your ways.

A little background first. I happen to be a firm believer in divine healing, faith healings, etc; but never had the kind of faith it takes to claim healing. There have been plenty of circumstances, situations, & relationships, that I have had nothing but faith in God to handle, as He has, & there have been places I’ve had to go, & journey’s I’ve had to take to bring me to the place where I could just leave these things with God & know that without a doubt, they were being handled; in His time, in His ways, & with His twists. But even my relationship with my boyfriend was one of these things… He kept telling me he would never date me… I kept telling him he would… God had told me it was going to happen….granted it was difficult remembering the “His time, ways, & twists” thing after over a year of waiting on this kid & us having a falling out finally two weeks before Valentine’s day… But I’ll just cut that short & say: he asked me to date him this past Valentine’s Day. Nobody was more surprised than me, even though I knew it would be… “His twists” you know? We had been at odd for two weeks! Haha, praise God & His twists!!!

Yet somehow, in spite of having faith for all these things I’ve gone through, (& grown through), & the fact that I believe in healing, I have never had the faith to claim healing, or rather… I knew the prayers of the elders at my church were good for me when (I was sick, but never KNEW with certainty that I was going to be healed. It sounds a bit like double talk, I know, to say I didn’t have faith to receive healing, yet that I believe in God’s Holy Scriptures 100%, when they speak of healing, & say things like:

James 5: 13 Is anyone among you suffering? Then he must pray. Is anyone cheerful? He is to sing praises. 14 Is anyone among you sick? Then he must call for the elders of the church and they are to pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord; 15 and the prayer offered in faith will restore the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up, and if he has committed sins, they will be forgiven him. 16 Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much.

So Friday, March 5^th, I get home from work, I’m happy, in a good mood, but somehow, things are strange at home. It’s about 11pm, & my room mate is way passed out, the house is quiet, & I try to tell myself that this spiritual haze is really just my mind because the house is silent, the dogs where even silent. I have not been having much time to study my bible, due to my work schedule, so I put on some worship music, & as I clambered into my bed & told God how much I missed spending time with Him, & how I longed to know His mind, know His heart, love what He loves, hate what He hates, & suffer what He suffers. The plan was to get up two hours early to have my morning with Him. Then, for no real apparent reason, I felt lead to change my Facebook status from my phone to this:

“Sonja praises You through the tears & pain. Healing comes when I offer my song praising You, Healer, Savior, Redeemer, God.” 12:23am

I felt like the Holy Spirit dropped a question into my spirit, “Are you ready?” I turned off my music, then I went to sleep.

Like, an hour  later, I woke up in such sever pain I had never known, my ribs felt broken, my shoulder felt crunched, my side burned, my arm ached, and behind my breast I felt bruised. The whole right part of my upper torso just felt like I had being beaten, ripped, and punched. Due to my asthma, typically when I have any pain near my chest, I panic, the fear sets in, & in turn, so does the asthma. This was different. I was acutely aware of a demonic presents, but even more so, I knew God’s Holy Spirit was right there with me, holding me. The pain was incredible, & for a split second I grabbed my phone to dial an ambulance, but God spoke & said “Praise Me” so I did. I somehow knew that no hospital or doctor was the answer, only faith in God, & obedience to whatever He asked of me. So instead of panic, in spite of pane, I was at peace.

I was so intensely hurting & my mind was so ravished my the presents of the demon attacking me, that I couldn’t think for myself. I know God lead me through the night step by step. He gave me a vision that I stayed in all the night long, even though I was still clearly functioning (though poorly) in this realm. I really have no words to describe it.

I was at the foot of am extremely tall tower, the ground was brown dirt, & there were sienna dirt & rock mountains 3/4ths of the way around it, but it was much taller than they were. It was a medieval blue-ish gray stone & looked to be ages old.

As God instructed me as to what to do in the physical, I was to continuously praise Him, & worship Him, in spite of the pain, & as I did what He asked, I ran up the stairs spiraling the outside of this impossibly tall tower, climbing level by level, by level. My praises were like a counter attack, a powerful weapon against the lowly demon trying to take me out. Now even though I knew that there was demon present & attacking me, there were no monsters in my vision, there was just me & this tower, but I remember feeling like there were people watching me do this, lots of people, like I was showing them how, or something, like something big was dependent on me doing this, people were counting on me, even though there was nobody around in my vision, or in the physical. I’m still praying for the meaning of this, as it was a prominent part of the prophetic dream.

The Holy Spirit asked me to go to the kitchen for water. Typically I just go across the hall to my bathroom, & I was in such excruciating pain that I really didn’t want to go all the way to the kitchen, but I knew He was asking me too. I kept thanking Him, & praying, & climbing to new levels on my prophetic tower, fighting back with my worship of my powerful & wonderful Adonai. Because I had made it to the kitchen, I realized that I was freezing cold! *climbing* So on the way back to my room, I turned the heat on. *Another level* Went to lay back down, & the Holy Spirit said, “I know you want to rest, but get up, leave your room, sit on the stool in the hall, & take your water” so I did… & I reached the top of the tower as I sat down.

Sitting there a number of things happened. In my vision, I walked through an archway, & once inside I saw that I had now go all the way to the bottom of this tower via the spiral stairs inside. I started running down them. I might also mention that the Spirit was like blue smoke, in front of me & behind me, just encompassing me as I ran down, down, down, the seemingly endless stairs. In the physical, I was making the realization that these seemingly pointless tasks He was asking me to do, were in fact, not pointless at all. I would never have figured it out on my own, but God knew what was best. The pain in my chest was so that when I breathed in, & my lungs expanded, the muscle tissue on the inside of my ribcage, that was bruised, & at the time felt broken, would send sharp aching pangs like I was being stabbed. So it was interfering with my breathing. However, sitting up made it easier to fill my lungs without pressing against that tissue. Thank you Father! Then I realized that because I was so cold, I was shivering, & that was causing the whole situation to worsen, because as I shivered & jerked, I was jarring the bruised tissue. The heat vent happens to be right beside the little stool & since I had a blanket wrapped around me the heat was trapped, & quickly warmed my torso, helping me to be still, & have more control over my breathing, & steady my movements. Is God not just awesome & incredible!?!?!? Oh & that huge jug of water that really hurt to carry around in the shape I was in… Well the heat was dry & I was soon very grateful that He reminded me to bring it. Also, I suppose this could be due to having had a mild case of the flu the 2-27 through 3-3, because my room mate has this too, but the water started to loosen some thick mucus that was hiding in there. It REALLY hurts to cough, even now…

But I just kept following the Holy Spirit of God down all these flights of stairs, worshiping Him, step by step, thanking Him, level by level, worshiping His greatness, flight by flight. I must have just sat there running after Him on that stool for hours. It was a little after 1am when all this started & I had grabbed my phone; it was well after 4:30am when I finally went into my room & sat on the bed, leaned forward on a stack of blankets sitting Indian style so I was still erect, & then I reached the bottom level of this tower. There I was, surrounded by the Holy Spirit, standing in front of a stone door in the center column if this tower. I just praised Him for a while, still unable to lie back due to the jabs of pain, but I noticed that I no longer felt a demon present. I praised God, & the whole night had been calling the Blood of Christ over this situation, & rebuking it in the Name of Yeshua, & praising God, Who fights my battles & wins them. And from what happens next I know He was (as He always is, & always will be) victorious.

I opened the door, I entered, and all in an instant, I felt my faith increase. I can’t really explain this, but to say, I suddenly was able to pray in faith for healing & deliverance from the wounds I had incurred. I knew without a doubt that I was healed. I then I laid back! Still sore, still achy (shoot, its Monday night/Tuesday morn & I’m still a little bruised from Friday night), but I could lie down! The soreness has reminded me about the His time, His way, His twists thing quite a bit. As I lie there, testing my breathing to find out if I had to prop any certain body part up a certain way to sleep, I was basking in His presents. I’m still, even now in that room at the heart of the Strong Tower that nothing could ever scale, break down, or penetrate. It was given to me after all this that the demon was gone as soon as I entered the Tower. It couldn’t get in there! Hahaha! Our God is so awesome! The Prophetic vision was in the spiritual, you see, more real than the pain I was in, so that demon had no choice but to scram!

Until Friday, I was pretty oblivious to the fact that believers could be physically hurt by the demonic. Once when I was still into witchcraft I was beat up by what I thought then was a bad spirit… my boyfriend, (then friend) was even hurt by it, but since I had come to Christ, I never thought this kind of thing could happen. My good friend, & brother, TJ White, informs me that it is called travailing. I have a lot of study to do about it. & I have an appointment with my pastor Wednesday at 6 to discuss this & maybe gain some understanding & insight. My mother contacted several of my friends on Facebook & had asked them to pray for me, I’m grateful for this, especially Brother Doug Huchtemen, & my beloved Sister Sisca Situmorang Tumbuan, your prayers mean a lot to me. And mom, thank you for your efforts & prayers. My lovely boyfriend Justin directed me to this passage of scripture when I told him that I feared sounding like a wacko, even though I knew it was real:

1 Peter 4: 12 Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal among you, which comes upon you for your testing, as though some strange thing were happening to you; 13 but to the degree that you share the sufferings of Christ, keep on rejoicing, so that also at the revelation of His glory you may rejoice with exultation.

Now, I know that passage in it’s full context is speaking of persecution & sharing in Christ’s suffering, but it really seemed perfect! I was feeling a little odd & like people would think I was nuts. After all, Saturday morning (ya… the getting up two hours early didn’t happen, I fell out of bed 20 min before I had to be at work) when I told my room mate about it as she drove me to work, she replied with something like “Well I had a dream too, I was picking daffodils” so after that I was weird about telling anyone. My pseudo brother Dougy, who claims to be a christian, just thinks a big joke, and I should have went to a doctor instead of thinking I was “demon possessed” …I thought that even he could understand the difference between possession & warfare but I guess not, hu? *sigh* I wanted to tell my church Sunday when people were standing up testifying about how wonderful God is, & what He has done for them. Justin kept giving me the “just say it” look & I was trapped in “they will all think I’m nuts.”

All I really have left to say about this until God reveals more meaning about the odd parts of the vision, & I learn more about travailing, & have spoken with my pastor is this:

Thank You, Father, for allowing this to happen. Thank You for granting me increased faith, thank You for leading me, guiding me, and shepherding me all night. When the enemy was there to take me down…or out, You are my Strong Tower, my guiding Light, my All in All, my Protection, my Defense, You are the Victory & the great Healer & a whole night of communing directly with You was much better than being half asleep for a bible study, no matter how awesome that is as well!

Haha, yeah, I spent all day reading His Word & a little, but POWERFUL book by Charles Capps called God’s Creative Power for Healing. I highly recommend it to all. There are three different God’s Creative Power booklets I think.

Suddenly on Saturday, my status message from the night before made since…

“Sonja praises You through the tears & pain. Healing comes when I offer my song praising You, Healer, Savior, Redeemer, God.” 12:23am

So I have at least four posts I have been aching to put up for weeks, & several little things I want to go on tirades about, but I haven’t stopped to make the time. Time seems to be something I can never find anymore. Perhaps I should stop misplacing it… you see, I suppose I’m big enough to admit (…well a big enough nerd, anyways…) that what little precious time I have found to spare, of late, I have poured promptly into “The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess”… On that note, I would like to say that I shall be setting aside some time in the very near future just to make my posts. That’s an almost-sorta-promise, & I almost-sorta 100 % guarantee! Haha… ok. I’ll catch you all later. SHALOM!

(Ya…. on a post this nerdy, gotta use the nickname)

~*Pixie

TLOZ-DDR Remix

I’ve been greatly blessed,
With two eyes of blue,
Not to see out of,
But to look into.
Keep seeking His face,
Keep finding truth,
They say eyes are the windows,
& yours are the proof.
I’ve watched them change,
Grow deep & bright,
No longer dim,
From losing the fight.
Victorious now,
& brimming with life,
To replace the death,
And the pain & strife.
I’ve seen in your eyes,
As battle waged on,
Faith powered strength,
The weariness gone.
Now gazing toward heaven,
Are eyes that held tears,
So full of the hope,
They haven’t known for years.
Such inspiration & faith,
And grace from above,
Captured & held,
By the blue eyes I love.
I’ve been bless to watch them,
Through my eyes of green,
As we both watch things shifting,
In the world unseen.
Beaten & bloodshot,
Alone in that place,
Transformed triumphantly,
By His mercy & grace.
I saw the clouds clear,
And your storm was rife,
Yet self seeking ways fell,
To a Christ serving life.
I’ve watched as they shifted,
And He changed their perspective,
Focusing on God,
And a righteous objective.
I’m so grateful to have witnessed,
Your metamorphosis through faith,
A shining warrior has emerged,
From a dark & sickly wraith.
I pray I always get to watch,
Through the windows of your soul,
As God takes you on life’s journeys,
Shaping you as you stroll.
I’ve been so utterly blessed,
Watching you watch for Him,
As we are consumed with passion,
Wanting just to see HaShem.
I long greatly for day,
When we both behold His face!
And I’m very glad of two blue eyes,
While we wait here in this place.

Dedicated to YO FACE, JB… & I geuss I luz you & all that stuff too… lol

There is a group on Facebook, 1,000,000 Christians Praying for President Obama, the description section of the group page says the following:

This group exist to call people around the USA and World, to pray and interceed for the Kingdom of God in the earth!I personally want to thank all of those who live outside the US who are praying for our new President may God Bless you. This group is not an endorsement of Barack Obama or his politics. It is a unifying effort to call Christians together, to pray for Righteousness and Justice in our nation. We pray for God’s will to be done in the earth. Jesus is the King of Kings…. Invite your friends, but more importantly, please be praying!

Also, please grow up, with the advertising post on the discussion board… it’s meant to edify, to stir prayer, not meant for anything else… !
——————————–>>>>> JOIN!

Three most important things to pray for.

1. God would turn His heart toward Righteousness and not solely toward Justice, that ending or DRASTICALLY lowering the holocaust of abortion would become a consuming issue of this administration. With all God all things are possible.

2.That God would give him a spirit of wisdom and revelation.

3. That above all his family and he would be blessed, and safe, and that he would truly encounter the Lord Jesus and the power of His love and mercy.

We WELCOME: Chile, Denmark, Nicaragua, Burundi, the most recent nations represented !

Lord God, it is You who lifts one up, and sets one down, according to Scripture. Down through Your history with mankind you have used the devout and the heretic, and those in between. For it is not about us. We praise You, O Lord, for Your promises upon which we stand and the full knowledge that there is nothing that is going to happen to us, or to Your Christians, that has not already passed through Your hands. For in being set free, we have only the responsibility to deal with what is before in the manner that glorifies You, and to learn from it. You are our rock and our protector, O God, and only You know what lies around the corner for us. As Your people we stand together in Your presence and ask wisdom for our new President, we ask guidance of the Holy Spirit for him and for his cabinet. We ask that you will draw this nation together in the name of Jesus, and that we be reminded from moment to moment that we are to treat one another as we would treat our very own self. Amen

I joined the group, & I encourage all of you with Facebook accounts too as well, but we should all be praying. Here was my prayer in responce:

I come into full agreement with all others praying this prayer, & praying for our President Obama. Father God, it says in Your word that every person is subject to the governing authorities because there is no authority except from You, O God, and the government that exists is established by You. Father I believe every Word that You say, I know that I know that the fervent prayers of the righteous will accomplish much, so Lord God, I pray in the name if Jesus the Christ that President Obama will be receptive to those You place in his path to tell him of You, & that he will receive the Spirit of wisdom & truth. Touch his heart, touch the hearts of his family, Lord God, place people all around them to whisper of You & Lord, send Your Holy Spirit to turn their hearts. Father turn his heart & open his eyes to the truth about abortion, gay rights, & Israel. Open his eyes to all the things that trouble You. Father, I pray that he longs to know Your heart & govern by Your statutes. Guide his hand Father as he makes decisions that affect us all. Lord God let his eyes be opened & his heart transformed. Reveal Yourself to him, & reveal to him what actions he should take to defend Your people in Israel. Father God, thank You for the many blessings & wonderful works You are already doing behind the scenes that we are unaware of. You are powerful & wonderful Lord, & I bless Your Holy Name! Thank you Father! Bless his family, bless the man, dearest Lord God, pour out Your blessings on a changed White House Lord! I the name of the Savior, Redeemer, my Lord Jesus Christ, Amen!

Please, pray in support of our President. I didn’t vote for him, I don’t agree with him, but he IS my president. Christians, I ask you to please mot slander him, & complain. What have we need to complain for? In any sercumstance? We have the LORD our God to keep us, we have no needs that He can’t meet, so please don’t complain. Remember what His Word tells us in Romans chapter 13:

Romans 13 New American Standard Bible

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Be Subject to Government1 Every person is to be in subjection to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those which exist are established by God. 2 Therefore whoever resists authority has opposed the ordinance of God; and they who have opposed will receive condemnation upon themselves. 3 For rulers are not a cause of fear for good behavior, but for evil. Do you want to have no fear of authority? Do what is good and you will have praise from the same; 4 for it is a minister of God to you for good. But if you do what is evil, be afraid; for it does not bear the sword for nothing; for it is a minister of God, an avenger who brings wrath on the one who practices evil. 5 Therefore it is necessary to be in subjection, not only because of wrath, but also for conscience’ sake. 6 For because of this you also pay taxes, for rulers are servants of God, devoting themselves to this very thing. 7 Render to all what is due them: tax to whom tax is due; custom to whom custom; fear to whom fear; honor to whom honor

Remember that God must call a person for them to receive Him as it says in John 6:

44 “No one can come to Me unless the Father who sent Me draws him; and I will raise him up on the last day. 45 “It is written in the prophets, ‘AND THEY SHALL ALL BE TAUGHT OF GOD.’ Everyone who has heard and learned from the Father, comes to Me.

Keep in mind also that we can pray for the Spirit to move & that the prayers of the righteous ARE answered. James 5:

15 and the prayer offered in faith will restore the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up, and if he has committed sins, they will be forgiven him. 16 Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much

It was December 31st, 2008, there was a cd playing that I had never put in before, but was given months ago by a dear friend at my church. The Spirit was so strong. My room mate, Danielle, & I could not contain ourselves, we had to dance. Something inside of us was dancing rather than our physical person, & we just didn’t argue, we followed in our flesh, & danced…

In the center of our home is the largest room, the living room, that we never use, it’s empty, depressing, & just a room we go through to go from the kitchen to the bedroom-turned-library. This room was suddenly a stage. We both would run to it & leap, spin, jump, dance, & just worship from the inside out. It was a room filled with motivation, inspiration, & it was so welcoming!

I had this idea, a praise party. Dani & I shuffled a few words back & forth about it. We were super charged & excited, but quickly realized that the things we needed for this party wasn’t going to be readily do-able.

That evening, our friend Andrew & I went with her to her church’s New Years celebration, where I was surprised to see my pastor, his wife, & the woman that gave me the Prophetic Worship cd, Melissa (she also, by the way, somehow convinced me to dance with her in front of our congregation when we had Pastor Appreciation Day).

Well, Dani’s church is one of a decidedly dark congregation, & I however an decidedly white for a Jew. LOL Half the church went up to dance in the large space in front of the altars, with the kind of rhythm not so much bestowed upon peoples of my ethnicity… AND they were filming… so I had no idea why, other than that my spirit wanted to worship, but I went up there & danced, & jumped up & down, & I could feel His presence so strong, & He was speaking to me.

Dani & I came into the new year both with personal break throughs, a stronger relationships with Jehovah, deeper understanding, a better outlook, more hunger & thrust for Him than ever, & a similar vision stirring in our spirits.

We are not having a praise party. We are getting black light, new curtains, I am painting six African/Midwestern mix paintings themed on worship, buying a mirror, getting enough bean bag furniture to line the room. The bright paintings will line the walls. There will be new lighting (more soft/dim/colorful, less ‘ceiling fan so low you walk into it & so bright you feel like you are gonna go blind, is this a morgue?’). We are gonna be setting up our dinning room that is attached to the living room (& also unused) with a bookshelf & “refreshments bar” & some other surprises. This is the Praise & Worship Party Room.

We haven’t got it all worked out yet, but we know what He showed us. To me, it was a room, people in sincere worship, no eyes on anything but Him, & the Spirit was swirling & dancing around us, like a spiral of smoke, in a dim room, with beautiful colors glowing & flashing from lights that illuminated the moving Spirit, weaving in between us, & a glow of the purest light shining down from the open heavens into this room, filled with lifted hands & broken hearts, so bright & beautiful was His glory!!! there were some on the floor in deep prayer, some dancing, some singing, some laughing, some laying on the floor almost motionless, just being still. All in a truer & more intense form of worship than I have ever witnessed.

I’m not sure what the Spirit revealed to Dani, I hope she will post it in a comment here?! Please Dani??

From that grew the idea of the bean bag furniture, for reclining to look at our Bibles, sitting to pray, laying across to just be still. The idea of the dining room having books & refreshments & such was for quiet, reflection & study, also so that there is specific, set aside, parts of out home dedicated to the Lord. This is the central aria in the house, & we are dedicating it solely to God.

We will probably start out with trying to do this twice a month. But the details will be worked out as God provides them. We are not even sure of how long it will take us to do all of the preparation & remodeling.

Today I was reminded of the word spoken over my pastor at Dani’s church, & I hate to paraphrase but it was something like: collage age believer’s would start being brought into the church through a venue that God would provide. I would have to listen to the cd to hear exactly. But this is Due West… Erskine Seminary Collage is the only thing here.

I long to see this be used to glorify God. There are no places nearby, or that I know of at all around her, that we can just go & worship. Dani & I were talking about how there isn’t any Christian clubs that we can go to to be with others & just glorify Jesus! Lets worship together! I personally, am very excited. Praise the Lord! He is awesome!!!

Pray about this with us, please everyone!

Much love & God bless you this year!

“God is spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.” ~John 4:24

For am amazing blog post on true worship, & a study of John 4:24, follow this link:

http://josephmcbee.wordpress.com/2008/08/14/blogged-bible-study-john-4/

What do you celebrate each year? What does it stand for? What meanings are found in it’s symbolism? Do you really know the answers to these questions??

Yule, that’s just a Winter celebration… right?

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Yule: the Winter Solstice, Yuletide (Teutonic), Alban Arthan (Caledonii)
Around Dec. 21
This Sabbat represents the rebirth of light. Here, on the longest night of the year, the Goddess gives birth to the Sun God and hope for new light is reborn.
Yule is a time of awakening to new goals and leaving old regrets behind. Yule coincides closely with the Christian Christmas celebration. Christmas was once a movable feast celebrated many different times during the year. The choice of December 25 was made by the Pope Julius I in the fourth century AD because this coincided with the pagan rituals of Winter Solstice, or Return of the Sun. The intent was to replace the pagan celebration with the Christian one.
The Christian tradition of a Christmas tree has its origins in the Pagan Yule celebration. Pagan families would bring a live tree into the home so the wood spirits would have a place to keep warm during the cold winter months. Bells were hung in the limbs so you could tell when a spirit was present.
Food and treats were hung on the branches for the spirits to eat and a five-pointed star, the pentagram, symbol of the five elements, was placed atop the tree.
The colors of the season, red and green, also are of Pagan origin, as is the custom of exchanging gifts.
A solar festival, The reindeer stag is also a reminder of the Horned God. You will find that many traditional Christmas decorations have some type of Pagan ancestry or significance that can be added to your Yule holiday. Yule is celebrated by fire and the use of a Yule log. Many enjoy the practice of lighting the Yule Log. If you choose to burn one, select a proper log of oak or pine (never Elder). Carve or chalk upon it a figure of the Sun (a rayed disc) or the Horned God (a horned circle). Set it alight in the fireplace at dusk, on Yule. This is a graphic representation of the rebirth of the God within the sacred fire of the Mother Goddess. As the log burns, visualize the Sun shining within it and think of the coming warmer days. Traditionally, a portion of the Yule Log is saved to be used in lighting next year’s log. This piece is kept throughout the year to protect the home.

http://www.geocities.com/athens/olympus/4642/yule.html

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What about Christmas? Christian celebrate Christmas right? that’s why CHRIST is in front of the mas… Well, Christmas is really like the bastard son of the Nativity & yule, thanks to the Catholic church. Shepherds were not abiding in the fields in December… just no. Santa was not present at the birth of Christ, & no…

http://www.thercg.org/books/ttooc.html

http://www.simpletoremember.com/vitals/Christmas_TheRealStory.htm

The Origins of Christmas Customs

A. Christmas Trees
Just as early Christians recruited Roman pagans by associating Christmas with the Saturnalia, so too worshipers of the Asheira cult and its offshoots were recruited by the Church sanctioning “Christmas Trees”.[7] Pagans had long worshiped trees in the forest, or brought them into their homes and decorated them, and this observance was adopted and painted with a Christian veneer by the Church.

B. Mistletoe
Norse mythology recounts how the god Balder was killed using a mistletoe arrow by his rival god Hoder while fighting for the female Nanna.  Druid rituals use mistletoe to poison their human sacrificial victim.[8] The Christian custom of “kissing under the mistletoe” is a later synthesis of the sexual license of Saturnalia with the Druidic sacrificial cult.[9]

C. Christmas Presents
In pre-Christian Rome, the emperors compelled their most despised citizens to bring offerings and gifts during the Saturnalia (in December) and Kalends (in January).  Later, this ritual expanded to include gift-giving among the general populace.  The Catholic Church gave this custom a Christian flavor by re-rooting it in the supposed gift-giving of Saint Nicholas (see below).[10]

D. Santa Claus

a. Nicholas was born in Parara, Turkey in 270 CE and later became Bishop of Myra.  He died in 345 CE on December 6^th.  He was only named a saint in the 19^th century.

b. Nicholas was among the most senior bishops who convened the Council of Nicaea in 325 CE and created the New Testament.  The text they produced portrayed Jews as “the children of the devil”[11] who sentenced Jesus to death.

c. In 1087, a group of sailors who idolized Nicholas moved his bones from Turkey to a sanctuary in Bari, Italy.  There Nicholas supplanted a female boon-giving deity called The Grandmother, or Pasqua Epiphania, who used to fill the children’s stockings with her gifts.  The Grandmother was ousted from her shrine at Bari, which became the center of the Nicholas cult.  Members of this group gave each other gifts during a pageant they conducted annually on the anniversary of Nicholas’ death, December 6.

d. The Nicholas cult spread north until it was adopted by German and Celtic pagans.  These groups worshipped a pantheon led by Woden –their chief god and the father of Thor, Balder, and Tiw.  Woden had a long, white beard and rode a horse through the heavens one evening each Autumn.  When Nicholas merged with Woden, he shed his Mediterranean appearance, grew a beard, mounted a flying horse, rescheduled his flight for December, and donned heavy winter clothing.

e. In a bid for pagan adherents in Northern Europe, the Catholic Church adopted the Nicholas cult and taught that he did (and they should) distribute gifts on December 25^th instead of December 6^th.

f. In 1809, the novelist Washington Irving (most famous his The Legend of Sleepy Hollow and Rip Van Winkle) wrote a satire of Dutch culture entitled Knickerbocker History.  The satire refers several times to the white bearded, flying-horse riding Saint Nicholas using his Dutch name, Santa Claus.

g. Dr. Clement Moore, a professor at Union Seminary, read Knickerbocker History, and in 1822 he published a poem based on the character Santa Claus: “Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house, not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse.  The stockings were hung by the chimney with care, in the hope that Saint Nicholas soon would be there…” Moore innovated by portraying a Santa with eight reindeer who descended through chimneys.

h. The Bavarian illustrator Thomas Nast almost completed the modern picture of Santa Claus.  From 1862 through 1886, based on Moore’s poem, Nast drew more than 2,200 cartoon images of Santa for Harper’s Weekly.  Before Nast, Saint Nicholas had been pictured as everything from a stern looking bishop to a gnome-like figure in a frock.  Nast also gave Santa a home at the North Pole, his workshop filled with elves, and his list of the good and bad children of the world.  All Santa was missing was his red outfit.

i. In 1931, the Coca Cola Corporation contracted the Swedish commercial artist Haddon Sundblom to create a coke-drinking Santa.  Sundblom modeled his Santa on his friend Lou Prentice, chosen for his cheerful, chubby face.  The corporation insisted that Santa’s fur-trimmed suit be bright, Coca Cola red.  And Santa was born – a blend of Christian crusader, pagan god, and commercial idol.

• To keep money in the “church” & vandalism to a minimal, Catholics sanctioned pagan worship or the winter solstice, yule, etc.
• Catholics put this date as Dec 25.
• The Nativity was added it to make it Churchy & have a pretty face.

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Ew, that’s all quite sticky… ok, so then… whats the catch with Hanukkah?

…In my opinion, the spelling.

A very simple, short, & sweet description to the origins of Hanukkah can be found here:

http://hanukkah.123holiday.net/

Overall, Hanukkah is typically considered a minor holiday in Jewish Tradition. It’s not a holy day (yom tov), like Rosh Hashanah or Passover. Hanukkah, like Purim, is a post-Biblical holiday. It’s conidered to be a “young man’s” celibration, filled with merry making

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On each night of Hanukkah, the menorah is lit to commemorate a miracle which occurred after the Jews proclaimed victory over the Syrian armies in 165 B.C.E. When Jews came to rededicate the Temple-which had been defiled by the Syrians-they found only one small flask of oil with which to light the menorah. This flask contained only enough oil for one day, yet the lamp burned for eight days (by which time a fresh supply of oil was obtained). – In Israel, the Hanukkah menorah is called the Hanukiyah
Menorahs come in all shapes and sizes. The only requirement is that the flames are separated enough so that they will not look too big and resemble a pagan bonfire.
– Ancient menorahs were made of clay. They consisted of small, pearl shaped vessels, each with its own wick, which were arranged side-by-side.
– Today’s menorah, which stands on a base from which the branches sprout, resembles the holy Temple’s menorah and started to appear towards the end of the Middle Ages.

http://www.history.com/content/hanukkah/hanukkah-traditions

http://www.yeshuatyisrael.com/hanukkah.htm is a good site to get a taste of Hanukkah!

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So now, what is the Nativity? …The birth of Jesus… duh! Hahaha, ok, so the Nativity stoy is as follows:

Matthew Chapter 1

Conception and Birth of Jesus

18 Now the birth of Jesus Christ was as follows: when His mother Mary had been betrothed to Joseph, before they came together she was found to be with child by the Holy Spirit. 19 And Joseph her husband, being a righteous man and not wanting to disgrace her, planned to send her away secretly. 20 But when he had considered this, behold, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream, saying, “Joseph, son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary as your wife; for the Child who has been conceived in her is of the Holy Spirit. 21 “She will bear a Son; and you shall call His name Jesus, for He will save His people from their sins.” 22 Now all this took place to fulfill what was spoken by the Lord through the prophet: 23 “BEHOLD, THE VIRGIN SHALL BE WITH CHILD AND SHALL BEAR A SON, AND THEY SHALL CALL HIS NAME IMMANUEL,” which translated means, “GOD WITH US.” 24 And Joseph awoke from his sleep and did as the angel of the Lord commanded him, and took Mary as his wife, 25 but kept her a virgin until she gave birth to a Son; and he called His name Jesus.

Chapter 2:

The Visit of the Magi1 Now after Jesus was born in Bethlehem of Judea in the days of Herod the king, magi from the east arrived in Jerusalem, saying, 2 “Where is He who has been born King of the Jews? For we saw His star in the east and have come to worship Him.” 3 When Herod the king heard this, he was troubled, and all Jerusalem with him. 4 Gathering together all the chief priests and scribes of the people, he inquired of them where the Messiah was to be born. 5 They said to him, “In Bethlehem of Judea; for this is what has been written by the prophet:
6 ‘AND YOU, BETHLEHEM, LAND OF JUDAH,
ARE BY NO MEANS LEAST AMONG THE LEADERS OF JUDAH;
FOR OUT OF YOU SHALL COME FORTH A RULER
WHO WILL SHEPHERD MY PEOPLE ISRAEL.’”
7 Then Herod secretly called the magi and determined from them the exact time the star appeared. 8 And he sent them to Bethlehem and said, “Go and search carefully for the Child; and when you have found Him, report to me, so that I too may come and worship Him.” 9 After hearing the king, they went their way; and the star, which they had seen in the east, went on before them until it came and stood over the place where the Child was. 10 When they saw the star, they rejoiced exceedingly with great joy. 11 After coming into the house they saw the Child with Mary His mother; and they fell to the ground and worshiped Him. Then, opening their treasures, they presented to Him gifts of gold, frankincense, and myrrh. 12 And having been warned by God in a dream not to return to Herod, the magi left for their own country by another way.

The Visit of the Magi

1 Now after Jesus was born in Bethlehem of Judea in the days of Herod the king, magi from the east arrived in Jerusalem, saying, 2 “Where is He who has been born King of the Jews? For

we saw His star in the east and have come to worship Him.” 3 When Herod the king heard this, he was troubled, and all Jerusalem with him. 4 Gathering together all the chief priests and scribes of the people, he inquired of them where the Messiah was to be born. 5 They said to him, “In Bethlehem of Judea; for this is what has been written by the prophet:
6 ‘AND YOU, BETHLEHEM, LAND OF JUDAH,
ARE BY NO MEANS LEAST AMONG THE LEADERS OF JUDAH;
FOR OUT OF YOU SHALL COME FORTH A RULER
WHO WILL SHEPHERD MY PEOPLE ISRAEL.’”
7 Then Herod secretly called the magi and determined from them the exact time the star appeared. 8 And he sent them to Bethlehem and said, “Go and search carefully for the Child; and when you have found Him, report to me, so that I too may come and worship Him.” 9 After hearing the king, they went their way; and the star, which they had seen in the east, went on before them until it came and stood over the place where the Child was. 10 When they saw the star, they rejoiced exceedingly with great joy. 11 After coming into the house they saw the Child with Mary His mother; and they fell to the ground and worshiped Him. Then, opening their treasures, they presented to Him gifts of gold, frankincense, and myrrh. 12 And having been warned by God in a dream not to return to Herod, the magi left for their own country by another way.

The Flight to Egypt

13 Now when they had gone, behold, an angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph in a dream and said, “Get up! Take the Child and His mother and flee to Egypt, and remain there until I tell you; for Herod is going to search for the Child to destroy Him.”
14 So Joseph got up and took the Child and His mother while it was still night, and left for Egypt. 15 He remained there until the death of Herod. This was to fulfill what had been spoken by the Lord through the prophet: “OUT OF EGYPT I CALLED MY SON.”

Herod Slaughters Babies

16 Then when Herod saw that he had been tricked by the magi, he became very enraged, and sent and slew all the male children who were in Bethlehem and all its vicinity, from two years old and under, according to the time which he had determined from the magi. 17 Then what had been spoken through Jeremiah the prophet was fulfilled:
18 “A VOICE WAS HEARD IN RAMAH,
WEEPING AND GREAT MOURNING,
RACHEL WEEPING FOR HER CHILDREN;
AND SHE REFUSED TO BE COMFORTED,
BECAUSE THEY WERE NO MORE.”
19 But when Herod died, behold, an angel of the Lord appeared in a dream to Joseph in Egypt, and said, 20 “Get up, take the Child and His mother, and go into the land of Israel; for those who sought the Child’s life are dead.” 21 So Joseph got up, took the Child and His mother, and came into the land of Israel. 22 But when he heard that Archelaus was reigning over Judea in place of his father Herod, he was afraid to go there. Then after being warned by God in a dream, he left for the regions of Galilee, 23 and came and lived in a city called Nazareth. This was to fulfill what was spoken through the prophets: “He shall be called a Nazarene.”

So in essence, the celebration, of the birth of Christ, is found in only one place: the NATIVITY. Not Yule, not Christmas, not Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, nor anywhere other than the Nativity story. A few things I would like to point out…

1) Shepherds aren’t in the fields in the winter. 2) Nowhere does it say there where three Magi, just three gifts, there could have been several, or just two, we don’t know. 3) By the time they visit Jesus is a small child in the scripture, AND Herod was having children two years & under killed… not up to two years, but two years & under… hmmm

Anyways you guys, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, or if youre doing it like me this year, BLESSED NATIVITY!!!

“And He brought me to the entrance at the Gate of the House
of the L-rd which was at the north; and there were there women sitting, bewailing the Tammuz” (Yechezkel 8:14)

Yeah…. crazy to me, because this quote from Ezekiel was found here:

http://www.ou.org/chagim/roshchodesh/tammuz/default.htm

This year, on 1 Tummuz, I had come back to the Lord. “He brought me to the entrance at the Gate of the House of the L-rd”

…wow. 1 Tummuz this year was July 4. The best holiday I have ever lived through… my rebirth day. Hmmm. Now, it’s a long story, & it’s confusing to those who believe “once saved, always saved” as I used too, & I am not getting into that here & now. That’s another blog topic all together. But I was saved long ago, I turned away from God, & lived for myself in the worst ways, I went further than just your sex, drugs, & rock-n-roll life style. I had begun to practice Wicca, & various other dark arts, I sunk into a bisexual life style, I even supported Obama! (haha) The oddest part of my conversion story, I think, is that I was more than happy about where I was & what I was doing, with no interest or intention for change. Well, that may not be THE weirdest part, but it was pretty random to say the least.

Before the 4^th…

I had been working at Ihop, & making most of my money there by selling pills to my bosses & co-workers. I myself had been doing so many kolonapins, valumes, & xanax, as well as being given so much free powder, that two weeks passed that I cannot recall but tiny bits here & there… From my perspective then, life was more than good, money, drugs, party, blasting tunes, free everything, & people adored me. Everybody just loved Pixie… I spent most nights at some friend’s house partying, then I would crash a couple hours, do some uppers, go to work, leave work, then the same. I was killing myself everyday, but I couldn’t see that. My body was breaking down, but I thought I was indestructible. God was the least of my concerns as, I then thought, I was my own goddess.

My best friend & I would have philosophical conversations though, that turned to spiritual & theological topics, & I found myself defending the bible a few times… & that always freaked me out. I felt like Justin was going to think I was stupid for defending it, I felt stupid about it myself! But every one of these conversations brought a tugging feeling, that unsettled me, & a shaking feeling, like I was standing on something unstable. It bothered me that I spent more time trying to justify what I believed in, & defending what I didn’t, than I did arguing against it, no matter how much I wanted too. The conversations came out of nowhere & their occurrence was more & more prevalent each time Justin & I spoke. I tried to avoid them & run away from them & Justin would push the topic. Now, I thank God he did.

This stuff was starting to get to me, so I went the book store where I spent an entire check on every book on the occult, Wicca, tarot, astrology, you name it, just so I could re-convince myself that Jesus is what brainwash old fogeys believe in, & “I” was all I needed to believe in. The books sat in the bag for a few days, I told Justin “I got these great books…” but I never could look at them, I had lost interest. What’s worse is that my best friend was the only person I could talk to about anything, & I couldn’t confide in him about this at all. I just wanted to not talk to him at all because he brought up spirituality every time we talked.

One morning, I woke up & thought “I don’t want Justin to go to hell, I should tell him.”

This thought haunted me for days as I then didn’t believe in hell, nor did I have anything to tell him. So I spent two weeks doing whatever I did that inhibited me from remembering them. Oddly enough, Justin & I, who talked everyday, or were together for days at a time every week, didn’t call each other, not once, during this time. We didn’t have a fight, or anything. Just didn’t speak. I partied a lot those two weeks, blocked out anything that wasn’t “go to work-go have fun” but then I was sober… My waking thought was, on this sober day, “I really love him, I was taught the truth as a kid, and I should just tell him. I don’t want Justin to go to hell.” I then said to myself “You’re loosing it” & called up my friend Andrew & asked him take me to run some errands so as to not think about those things.

We stopped to get pizza, & I put some quarters in the Flintstones machine. I got two little animals with Mohawks, & a toy angel. Who should show up at this restaurant? Justin & our friend Grace. I gave him the angel, joking around, & with the 4^th of July being that weekend, we thought we should go see a movie.

I think it was the next night; I fell to my knees, asked God for forgiveness, thanked Jesus for His precious blood, & accepted Him into my heart & life. I wished I had not intentionally left my Bible at the house I moved from, & laughed at myself when I noticed the witchcraft books still untouched in that bag.

The 4^th of July 2008

I was so nervous. My best friend, the one human I truly love & Know I am loved by, (aside from my daddy who I never get to see or talk too) was going to shun me. He was going to hate me, laugh at me & walk away from me because there was nobody so despised as Christians to us. Those horrid people that go around hating you if you didn’t subscribe to their beliefs, we hated them… Now I’m one. This changes everything! On the off chance that Justin will be okay with my reform, we won’t be able to hang out or talk anyway because I won’t want drugs, witchcraft, constant fowl language, dirty jokes etc, to fill the air around me. I don’t even want the same music that we thumped all the time now, & music is our life’s blood…. How is this going to work? I’m terrified! I’m ready to tell everybody I know, & I don’t care if they shun me, accuse me, laugh at me, leave me, or persecute me, whatever reaction is fine because Christ is now all that matters. But I have to tell Justin first…. I have to. I’m so scared because I’m so in love with him, I CAN NOT lose him…. But if I have too, I will….

So as our ride is dropping us off at the theater (we saw Wall-E!!!) I’m convincing myself about how I have to do this, no matter how hard, & telling myself that we all have to make sacrifices for the Kingdom. This proves to be the hardest thing I had ever done! I’m inwardly stressing about it when he asks “So what did you want to talk about? Cause I wanted to tell you something too.” …probably something about his buddy Anthony bringing some X up here to SC, or he’s about to relocate yet again, he got a new magic book or a spirit showed up, or he got a hold of some money or rolls, “it’s life changing” …he’s gay?? Well none of that’s important anyhow because I’m about to lose him forever.

I put mine off, & he put his off. We couldn’t talk about it before the movie, not enough time. We would talk about it after the movie. So we talked about having to talk, saw Wall-E & it rocked! When it was over, well, we couldn’t talk about it then, because we had to get sushi, & the walk there was too short, so we would talk about it over the sushi. We got to the sushi place, Furisatos, & decided there is no point in ruining a good meal with serious discussion. We could talk after sushi. We ate, I paid, and we left. As we marched down the bypass of Greenwood South Carolina, on our way to the fire work stand, we discussed how important our discussion would be, when we finally discuss it, but we couldn’t then, because we had no place to sit, & didn’t want to have to cut it short when we got to the little shop. We purchased our Chinese cannons & had my friend Jon drive us back to my mom’s where I was staying, he left & we were going to talk then, but that would ruin the fire works, so we will wait till afterward.

After the fireworks, we have run out of excuses, & Justin suggests music *PANIC* for background noise so we can more easily talk. I panic. Instead of the classic rock, pshy-rock, or happy hardcore techno we always were banging my speakers with, there was Christian rock in the cd player – dc Talk’s Jesus Freak. I say “I don’t know if you’ll like what’s in…” thinking well, the convo was bound to happen, why not have a cake topper, eh? So we sit on a blanket, both of us have something serious, important, life changing, that is going to change our friendship forever, who goes first? We decided that even though a good 75% of our lives are equivocal & we have mind-fripples that enable us to say & do even the most random things at the exact same moment, we know each other well enough to know our news, is not the same news. That being a better topic that discussing the actual topic, we continue on in our avoidance of the inevitable, & all the while build questions in our heads… We both just know the other is completely not going to be on the same page, so either they are moving, gay, quitting drugs, pregnant, getting married to a Brazilian one eyed midget known only as “Fluffy” or has decided to reenlist.

But after being annoyed I just say “we are never gonna talk about this, we should just both write what our news is on our tickets, then pass notes, like 5^th graders” & so we did. Of course it took us both another 15 min to actually pass them, then 10 more to actually look, and see …that we were both saved by grace through faith in Christ Jesus. One of the best moments of my life! Neither of us could really believe it at first, for weeks actually we were just like “wow, whoa, what!?” It is incredible! From time to time, it still hits us.

We never told the other about what was in our heads, we had no idea of the other’s spiritual journey, or that our conversations had lead to that for each other. The two most awesome things we had unknowingly done for each other, in my opinion, are the signs… You see, A few nights prior, Justin had prayed that if God was really God, that He would send Justin an angel for evidence. Just send him the vision of an angel to see, just an angel to look at so he could have proof… Nothing happened, of course! …until the next day I got a little angel from a Flintstone’s machines at the Pizza Inn, & gave to him… (The Pizza Inn, we somehow never noticed, has openly Christian signs & prayer requests on their marquee…) Then a few days after the 4^th Justin asks me to look for his hat, he had left it here when we burned all my occult & pagan belongings, we had went through boxes of books to find it all, including the brand new ones, & lots of other wiccan items, & it all went into this fire. I cannot find it any place, then suddenly it dawns on me that maybe its in a box we had been digging through, so sure enough, I open up a book-box & there is his hat… along with the Bible I had learned from as a child & teen, the same Bible I purposely left (or so I thought, thought I had hoped not) at my foreclosed house. I would never had looked back in that box if it wasn’t for his hat.

God affirms thing & shows us things in so many ways; through others, through song lyrics, & even through Jewish calendars! This was all brought back to me in a an instant because of stumbling across a scripture from Ezekiel at the top of a website. Please follow that link, it’s interesting. I love His whispering to me.

It’s so amazing, the journey we go on, the things God does for us… HaShem, thank You! Bless the LORD! I want so much for others to see how much God loves us all, what He took me from!!! Wow… the depths of my sin… & He was right there calling me into His arms despite it all! What LOVE!!! What love, that Christ would take the punishment for all that I have done! “No greater love is there” …so true, so very true. May I always be reminded, & always remember!!! PRAISES TO THE KING OF GLORY!!!! Amen!

Please Father; never stop reminding me with a whisper!

Warning: there are some photos in this post that might disturb some people.

First, some flippancy:
I propose that suicide be legalized, as abortion is clearly sexist, & to preserve a politically correct society both genders should be entitled to kill something & legitimize this right with the argument “hey, it’s my body.”

(…a lot of you didn’t note my sarcasm in that…that’s what being flippant means…)

Now for some tragedy:
Here are some statistics that you should give a few seconds to:
http://erlc.com/article/abortion-statistics
http://www.guttmacher.org/pubs/fb_IAW.html
http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,880,00.html

The big excuse:

On average, women give at least 3 reasons for choosing abortion: 3/4 say that having a baby would interfere with work, school or other responsibilities; about 2/3 say they cannot afford a child; and 1/2 say they do not want to be a single parent or are having problems with their husband or partner.

My tirade on the matter:

All of these things could be taken care of with adoption… Give your child up if you can’t/won/t take care of it. There are millions of couples out there that want children & can’t have their own. I can’t. I will one day adopt, & so will millions like me. It’s all together another topic, & a very heart wrenching one, but I’ll adopt a child, not a baby. People don’t tend to adopt children as much, but they slap their names on waiting lists for infants & will wait there for years until a baby is available.

How much shorter would those lists be if the babies that were murdered by heartless, lazy, or just misinformed women were put up for adoption instead of executed? What about the fathers that have no say in the murder of their children? I have many issues with abortion, & always have, but now the topic is so much more prevalent & the reasons more appalling.

As if the act itself wasn’t heinous enough, now any children that do by chance survive due to their executioner’s mistake will be left to slowly die. How cruel! President elect Obama won’t let the nurses care for any baby that survives a botched abortion, & even crueler, they aren’t allowed to put the child out of it’s misery either. He or she just gets to lie there & starve or freeze to death, for however long it takes.

We teach our teens & even children that “it isn’t a baby; it is a fetus, just a lump of flesh, so it’s ok to abort it.”

The Uniform Determination of Death Act
The National Conference of Commissioners on Uniform State Laws in 1980 formulated the Uniform Determination of Death Act (UDDA). It states that: “An individual who has sustained either

(1) Irreversible cessation of circulatory and respiratory functions, or

(2) Irreversible cessation of all functions of the entire brain, including the brain stem is dead.

A baby’s heart began beating at 18-25 days. His or her brain waves could have been recorded at 40 days…

So, by legal definition, you have just killed that “it” which is not a living human being, “it” is a fetus, just a lump of flesh…? If it’s not alive, how can it die? It clearly dies under the UDDA. By legal medical definition, abortion is murder. There is no way around this.

The definition of murder has evolved over several centuries. Under most modern statutes in the United States, murder comes in four varieties: (1) intentional putting another to death; (2) a killing that resulted from the intent to do serious bodily injury; (3) a killing that resulted from a depraved heart or extreme recklessness; and (4) murder committed by an Accomplice during the commission of, attempt of, or flight from certain felonies.

ABORTION IS FIRST DEGREE LEGAL MURDER

After 11 Weeks:
Your baby squints, swallows and can make a fist.

Your baby has fingerprints, and can kick - and is sensitive to heat, light, touch and noise.

Your baby is sucking his or her thumb, weighs 1 ounce and is 2 1/2 to 3″ long, and would fit comfortably in the palm of your hand.
from: http://www.mttu.com/abort-pics/index.html

The hand of a 10-week old. TEN WEEKS

Gen. 25:21,22 In Genesis 25:21,22, Rebekah conceived twins, and “the children struggled together within her.” That which was conceived was called a “child” between the conception and the birth.

The Hebrew word used here (BEN) is the most common Old Testament word for a child or son. When used for the physical offspring of humans, it consistently refers to distinct human individuals (see Gen. 25:1-4; 3:16; etc.). Job 3:3

On the very night of Job’s conception it could have been said, “There is a man-child conceived.” The word for “man-child” (Heb. GEBER) elsewhere means “man,” i.e., a human individual (see Job 3:23; 4:17; 10:5; Psalms 127:5; 128:4; etc.).

Job 3:16 Babies that die before birth are called “infants” that never saw light. This is exactly like babies that are aborted. This word (Heb. OLEL) always and without exception refers to human individuals (cf. Hosea 13:16; Psalm 8:2; Joel 2:16).

Numbers 12:12; Luke 1:43 In Numbers 12:12, Moses describes “one dead, of whom the flesh is half consumed when he cometh out of his mother’s womb.” If a baby dies before it is born — as in an abortion — the woman who conceived it is still a “mother.”

In Luke 1:43, Elizabeth addressed Mary as “the mother of my Lord” before Jesus was born.

The word “mother” (Heb. EM; Greek METER), in contexts referring to physical human reproduction, always refers to one who has procreated or formed another human individual, a separate and distinct individual from the mother herself (see Num. 6:7; Gen. 3:20; Luke 1:60). A woman who has conceived, even if the child is not yet born and even if it dies before birth, is a “mother.”

Luke 1:41,44 Elizabeth conceived (v. 24), and the life “in her womb” is called a “babe” or “baby” (Greek BREPHOS). This is the second-most-common New Testament word for a baby. It is always used for that which is a human individual separate and distinct from its mother (see Luke 2:12,16; Acts 7:19.)

Luke 1:36 Again, the life conceived in Elizabeth’s womb, before it was born, is called “a son.” The word “son” (Greek HUIOS), in contexts that refer to the physical offspring of humans, always refers to that which is a human individual separate and distinct as an individual from its parents. It is the most common New Testament word for a “son” (see Matt. 1:21,23,25; Luke 1:13,31; 2:7; etc.)

from: http://www.bible.ca/s-Abortion.htm